Wednesday, December 24, 200812:44 PM I love that song. Human - The Killers

Listening to it as I blog :).

I want to say not much has happened since I've last blog but a lot has actually. Idk why I've been avoiding blogging for so long. It was hard for me to sit down right now and type this, but I'm not exactly sure why.


I'm getting to the end of my first semester of highschool. It isn't that bad. I've made a lot of new friends and the classes aren't that hard, but they're not getting easier. Right now I'm on winter break and I should be studying for finals, but I can't seem to start. Not really sure where to begin lol.

When volleyball ended I was feeling empty. So I tried out for basketball and I made the team. Surprise, Surprise. Like literally though, because I've never been on a basketball team a day in my life and now I'm on the freshman team. I don't really like basketball though. Since I've never played, I'm not that good at it. I really miss playing volleyball, but to be honest, I think it's better that I did basketball rather than not do anything at all this whole winter season. I doubt my parents would have let me join club volleyball. I know this is kinda shallow too, but my pride won't let me quit basketball and I'm kind of using basketball to become closer friends w/ some of the more popular girls that I don't really talk to in school because they're not in any of my classes + we don't really hang out. I just think it helps me, and boosts my social status a little bit. Maybe the wrong reasons for being on the time but whatever.


I've tried to refrain from liking guys but I just couldn't help myself. I've gone through several crushes this semester, but I think I've found a keeper. I like this dude as much as I liked e (refer to older posts around may/june 2008 if you don't know who that is). And I liked e a lot. I probably still would if he and I didn't go to different schools, but he still lives in the same town as me.
Anyway, I don't think I've liked a lot of guys but then again let me think:

Co - he was my first crush in hs, but now that I know him better, he's a total queer, but still ok to talk 2.
S - I'm not sure why I liked this guy. I'm sorta friends with him, but he's one of the more cooler kids, so if anything I admired him from afar. I did talk to him though so it's not like I just watched him.
D - I honestly have no idea why I liked this guy at all. When I first saw him I thought he was funny and hot. Now he's just obnoxious and hot. But if he asked me out I'd probably say yes lol.
J- Ahh he sits behind me in english and he's adorable. We're friends, not like good good friends like I'd call him and stuff, but like class friends I guess. I really wish like we talked on the phone and stuff, but I only talk 2 him in school. Eitherway, I don't like him anymore. A little too annoying for my tastes.

Then there are so many other guys who I won't even bother listing because I liked them for maybe a day or two/ I only liked them because I thought they liked me, so when I found out they didn't I just stopped.

But here's the keeper:

c - I'm reffering to him as c (lowercase because I usually go by C; hah our names begin with the same letter!) Anyway, when I first saw c, it was in religion class ( I go to a private catholic hs) and I thought he was really weird). He sat in the front and I sat in the back so I never really talked to him. The one day our t (teacher), moved him to the back by me, and I started talking to him a little. But then my friend js had a bday party and invited him, me , and a lot of other people. That's when I started liking him for real (12/6/08). c and I like literally sat on a couch in js's basement talking about life and other random things( from harrypotter to like our own friends and stuff) for almost like 2-3 hours ( until he had to go, I lost track of time). People would come by and sit by us trying to get into the convo, but we kind of blocked all of them out ( not on purpose).
After that day, we just started talking moree. I'd see him like before my math class, in religion, and after school sometimes, and like we'd talk a little bit. Like before math it'd be me, c, my friend a, my other friend z, and a's bf tg. We'd all just stand around and talk til the bell rang and like he'd give me a hug and stuff and i'd be like byee =]. I remember one time before one of my games it was c, his friend jc, and me and were talking. Like at first I had to go, but he grabbed my hand and told me to wait up, so like we were standing there talking and it didn't seem like he was going to leave but I really had to go so I was like yea well I g2g, and he was like oh, ok then, laters. But omg I felt so bad for telling him that.

If you are still reading at this point major kudos to you. Most you are probably skimming by now =/


So, I went sledding with c, and some other people on saturday. According to my friend kt k, she told me that my other friend n, asked c if he liked me and he said idk. Then my kt k accidently asked him again the next day if he liked me, and she said he said "idk i dont think so". Well at least he didn't say no. But it leaves me thinking. BTW this was all through text messages.

So that now brings me to today. I still like him even though I'm not sure about how he feels about me. We're both friends, and we agree on like everything, but still I don't know. I don't get him though because I don't think he thinks I'm weird/ annoying like he talked to me after all that stuff happened on saturday + sunday so things aren't awkward even though he knows I like him. But like I never talk to him unless I call him or text him. He never calls or texts me. But he doesn't ignore my calls or texts either. But based on what I said, what do you think? Is he just one of those guys that don't talk on the phone?

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